Friday, December 21st, 2001
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5:44 pm - :: its alright. you'll get it all tonight ::
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i cant describe my anger for Sarah. and there is no point in trying. i think Abbee is mad at me too. Sarah is pissed as all hell at me. she wont admit it to me though. or to beth. i need a cigarette. no, i need a pack of cigarettes. i have to money, just no one to buy them. heh. i just cant get over how much Sarah can anger me. i know she is going to laugh when she hears about this. i would laugh if someone were writing it about me. i feel kinda stupid now. about 20 mins ago i had just gotten off the phone with Sarah and i was bitchy/pissed so i took 5 neproxine sodiums, 3 Abbee depression pills, and 3 sinus infection pills. probably not a smart idea. especially because neproxine sodium is like 3 aspirine. my liver is going to die. hehe.
current mood:  bitchy
current music: Sugar Coma - lost morning
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5:07 pm - What Goes Round
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you play with lies and suffocate everyone you know
memories can't touch you and you've sold away your soul
so easy to live that way let your conscience slip away
such a rush to play that game
nothing else will feel the same
what goes round
what goes round
what goes round
comes round
don't look back theres nothing there
but traces of old pain
you killed everything that cared
so you could live this way
don't come running back this time
when you think its all over
just take someone elses hand
cry on someone elses shoulder
what goes round
what goes round
what goes round
comes round
yeah
thats right
yeah
thats right
what goes round
what goes round
what goes round
comes round
what goes round
what goes round
what goes round
yeah
thats right
yeah
thats right
current music: Sugar Coma - what goes round
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4:13 pm - :: that day what a mess, what a marval. ::
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today was the last day of school (until after break). it was pretty good. i found from John that Abbee and Sarah are mad at me. they told him everything i say about him. thanx guys. im not sure why they are angry, but they are. i havent done anything.
last night i talked with Jim on the phone (no surprise there). it was great. he acted like we used to (you know, before i cheated on him). i couldnt stop smiling.
Kelly, Kelly, Kelly. *happy sigh* i havent really said much about Kelly lately, but, i was reading my friends page and she talked about me in her journal. yippee! *big smile* Kelly makes me sooo happy.
my daddy gave me a little container keychain. its cool.
we have JELLYBEANS
Beth (my sister) likes this kid names Tony (also known as Tony-high-five). he likes her. she doesnt want to date him because she doesnt know him that well. he told the whole-fucking school that they are dating. heh.
i watched SLC Punk! last night. i never get sick of that movie. even my little sister Mary-Grace, who is 1, likes it. she watches and laughs at it. teehee.
current mood:  pensive
current music: Natalie Imbruglia - that day
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Thursday, December 20th, 2001
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6:21 pm
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3:40 pm - :: you drive me crazy, i just cant sleep ::
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Abbee is depressed because Jana dumped Sarah. shit. i hate how Abbee does this. she caves in to other people. she's too much of a people pleaser. im glad Sarah is sad, she deserves it. she made Abbee sad as shit when she started dating Jana.
current mood: bitchy
current music: Sugar Coma - britney cover
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(1hurt | hurt me)
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3:34 pm - :: i'll kill myself in your bed, you wont forget ::
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more dollies! i now have a total of Nine. there is:
Mad
Delila
Darci
Sadie
Betty
Candy (NEW)
Nyn
Taffy (NEW)
Delerium (NEW)
they are so pretty!
i miss Jimie. i talked with him last night. we ended up talking about how i dont think he loves me anymore and how i think he's going to break up with me. he told me that he couldn't ever dump me because he will always love me. *sigh of relief* i love him!
current mood:  content
current music: Sugar Coma - Bed Of Dolls
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Wednesday, December 19th, 2001
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8:53 pm
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You're Tairrie B!
The Queen Bitch
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8:40 pm
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7:37 pm - :: she left me here alone again ::
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AHH! still no DeadJournal. well, i miss my Jim soooo much. i again, got the feeling that he doesnt love me last night. shit...
current mood:  crushed
current music: Sugar Coma - Blisters
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Tuesday, December 18th, 2001
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4:36 pm - :: she left me here alone again ::
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i was bored, so, i made a collage on my computer. i dont know who it is of, i found her pictures on her website (which i found through a seriers of links). but, if you want to see it, click HERE
current mood:  sick
current music: Sugar Coma - Blisters
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(1hurt | hurt me)
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2:36 pm - :: its way to high but its alright. we'll get it all tonight ::
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holy shit. look what i am doing. im using my LiveJournal. its only because DeadJournal is upgrading now. i stayed home from school today because i feel like shit. i woke up at 2am and couldnt sleep. my tummy hurt and i felt like i was going to spew. tomorrow im forcing myself to goto school. im always sick. :/ i hate being sick.
current mood: sick
current music: Sugar Coma - lost morning
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Sunday, December 2nd, 2001
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11:40 am
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so, Kelly said that she didnt want to talk to me. called me a whore. then she bitched herself out in her journal, changed how it looked, changed the picture, her user info, and all her friends. no. wait. John is still there. Adidaslip1. suspicious i would say. grrr..... john=evil.
current mood: bitchy
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(7hurts | hurt me)
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Friday, November 30th, 2001
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6:31 pm
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Wednesday, November 28th, 2001
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6:05 pm
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Sunday, November 25th, 2001
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1:26 pm
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10:42 am
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just so everyone knows, i write in my Deadjournal more often than in my LiveJournal
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9:53 am - * survey from Darci's Journal
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1. Name: Bekky
2. Birthday: november 23
3. Sex: Female
4. Single or Taken: taken
5. By who: Jimie
6. Crush on anyone but them?: of course
7. Cheated on someone: no....
8. Are you a virgin: ...yes
9. When did you "lose it": i havent
10. How many piercings?: 7
11. Where?: 2 in each ear, septum, one on each side of my bottom lip
12. Getting more? Where?: yes. i want my tounge, my nipple, my eyebrow (again), more in my ear, the side of my nose, the center of my lip. i dont think im going to get all these, but i want them.
13. Do you wear make-up: yeah. sometimes
14. Too much?: no.
15. Do you eat meat?: yes.
16. If no, when did you stop: i stopped for a year, but then started again
17. Is it okay to flirt if you're in a relationship?: yeah.
18. Is it okay for your partner to flirt?: yes... but it makes me very jealous.
19. Are you in love?: yep
20. Do you have any pets?: a cat
21. Favorite store?: i dont have one
22. Favorite Website: Alessandro Bavari and Mark Ryden
23. Favorite Food: fruits and vegetables and pizza snacks
24. Favorite Drink: Sprite
25. Best Friends: uh, i guess Abbee, Beth, Jim, etc.
current mood:  tired
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Friday, November 23rd, 2001
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9:37 am - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
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its my birthday! im finally 14.
current mood:  ecstatic
current music: Hole - all the boys on the radio
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Thursday, November 22nd, 2001
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3:05 am - * poo Bunny *
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well, because LiveJournal was being such a c-u-n-t i wrote quite a bit in my DeadJournal. i hate LiveJournal sometimes. no, a lot of the time.
anyway, Jim is going to be in New York. for how long, i dont know. i have no fucking idea. it was supposed to be till Sunday or Monday. but i think he leaves Friday, which means, i will see him 3 hours at the most. heh. it probably isnt worth it.
i miss my clothing. i let Angel borrow some of my clothes and i dont have them back yet and i miss them. just like i miss my pants i let Abbee borrow. i hope i get them back soon. :(
current mood:  angry
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Saturday, November 17th, 2001
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11:18 pm - damn livejournal!
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i realized that LiveJournal is being screwy. on ym journal it says that it's AM when it is really PM. grr...
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